Casee‘s review of Beg Me by Shiloh Walker.

Beg me…there had been a time when those words made her burn with desire. But now, there was only fear.

Once, Tania Sinclair’s life was almost perfect…oh, it had its ups and downs but she was happily married to a guy that adored her, one who had no problem indulging every kinky fantasy she ever had. But a couple of tragedies later, she’s barely holding it together. A car accident took away her husband, and an attack from somebody she should have been able to trust has shaken not only her confidence, but it’s also stripped away her fantasies and even made it painful to look back on her memories of her husband without fear.

Two years after her attack, Tania is determined to take her life back and the first step is taking back herself…her fantasies, her dreams, her memories. There’s only one person she can trust to do it, too. One person she wants enough…Drake Bennett, her husband’s best friend.

Falling for your best friend’s wife—never smart. Drake’s watched Tania quietly for years, watched her…wanted her, knowing he’d never have her. First, she was taken. And then, that night two years ago—a night that still scars her, a night that’s left bruises on her that still haven’t healed. He does what he can, though, because he loves her too much not to. He’s her friend, there when she needs him.

And now she needs him. She’s asked him for a favor…one that just about blows his mind…

I’m not a fan of short stories and/or novellas. IMO, Beg Me falls into that category. It takes an author with talent to satisfy this reader and Shiloh Walker is one of those authors.

Tania Sinclair has been dealt with her fair share of tragedy in life. First she lost her husband in a car accident. A husband whom she loved deeply. Shortly after he died, she was brutally attacked by her husband’s twin brother–her own brother-in-law. In a desperate act to protect herself, Tania shot and killed him in self-defense. In yet another blow, they were identical twins so every memory Tania has of her husband is tainted of the attack by his brother. Memories that should bring her comfort bring pain.

Tania’s sexual tastes run to the kinky. She likes being restrained and enjoys the occasional rape fantasy. Since she actually was raped, sex is something she is unable to enjoy, vanilla or otherwise. When the second anniversary of her attack passes, Tania decides that it’s time to take her power back. The only person she feels safe with his her husband’s best friend–Drake Bennett.

Drake has loved Tania for years. He fell for her the first time he met her, but she was off limits. He held her hand when Kyle died then was by her bedside when she was attacked by Kent. When she asks him to help her take back her sexuality, he is floored–and intrigued. He knows exactly what kind of sex life she had with Kyle after he was lucky (or unlucky) enough to accidentally walk in on them.

Beg Me was about a woman finding the strength to take the power back in her life. Not only the power of her sex life, but the power to love and to live. It was a powerful message. And even though the sex wasn’t the kind I generally like to read, it was because the that message and the emotion involved that I give it a 4 out of 5.

This book is available from Shiloh Walker. You can buy it in e-format only here or here in e-format.

Warning: This book involves light bondage play, rape fantasy & role-playing. The acts between the hero & heroine are consensual, but they may not be ideal for all readers…